One Year today

well i just logged on and was greeted to DA telling me i have been a member for a year. now those who know me, know this is not my first DA account, but it is the one i've put most time into i think. its funny too because i've been on the fence of deleting this account, just yesterday i was really close to doing so. the thing is, i've been not at the top of my game. with the passing of family members literally within a week of each other last month, mortality has been more on the mind. Prior to that a lot of the friends i made on here have probably noticed that i distanced myself quite far. i do apologize for this, its not an intentional thing as much as just a mental phase i go through. truth is i tend to be a really apathetic person, i lose interest in things really fast and quickly, drawing being the one thing i've tried to keep from escaping me. Truth of the matter is, even that can't be avoided, so sometimes i stop drawing or even wanting to see drawings. i do hope to get better, and again i am sorry for distancing myself from those i was once close with. that's really all i can say, thank you for those who have watched me, and continue to watch me. i hope not to disappoint as much as i have in the months as of late, and well there's something i hope to work on and will hopefully get done soon. Thanks again everyone, and truly i am sorry